I’m looking back at 2008. I’m thinking about how lucky I am. I’ve never looked back at a year and been so satisfied before. Usually I just hope the next year will be better. But 2008 was the best year I’ve ever had so how can ask for more? I can’t. Someone came into my life that has changed me forever. Changed my outlook on life. Changed how I view love. I’ve never been such an optimistic person.
This man that’s now in my life was my very first boyfriend. My first love. We were together when we were 12. I was crazy about him then. I even carved his initials into my arm. I was a messed up child but I’ve explained some of that in my other post about my father. Of course things didn’t last. We grew up living different lives with different friends. I ended up moving to North Carolina when I was 15.
Fast forward 16 years. Still living in NC. Jan 1st of 2008. My 2nd husband has just left me. Says he can’t handle it. It takes me 2 weeks to get over him. I had tried breaking it off with him 3 times before but he kept convincing me to give him another chance. So I did. Stupidly.
So 2 weeks later after New Years Day I get a Myspace message from my very first boyfriend. Asking how I am. I tell him about how my husband just left me but I’m fine cause I didn’t want to be with him either. We send messages back and forth all day. Then I give him my number so we can talk more. He calls. It’s like we’ve been friends all this time. We have the same sense of humor. We make each other laugh. We talk every single day now. Feelings start to emerge again. But he lives in California. In the same city we grew up in. We decide, because these feelings keep growing, for him to fly out here and see if there’s anything to this.
He fly’s out in mid February. It turns out the feelings are more intense than we could ever imagine. Nothing like we’ve ever felt before. It’s like we’ve been together forever. Finishing each others sentences. Understanding the warped sense of humor we have. It’s amazing!
So he never left. He’s been here ever since. The relationship has been amazing the whole time. I’m completely and totally in love with this man who was my first love. I still have initials carved in my arm. It’s like we had to go through all these difficult relationships to end up together at the right time in our lives.
Even if it doesnt last. I will forever remember 2008 as the best year of my life. The year I finally knew what love was.
UPDATE
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for all the lovely comments I received. I’m sorry I couldn’t respond to everyone. It was a little overwhelming. So thank you thank you thank you 
, Snippie
