January 6, 2009
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UPDATE- The year I finally knew what love was
I’m looking back at 2008. I’m thinking about how lucky I am. I’ve never looked back at a year and been so satisfied before. Usually I just hope the next year will be better. But 2008 was the best year I’ve ever had so how can ask for more? I can’t. Someone came into my life that has changed me forever. Changed my outlook on life. Changed how I view love. I’ve never been such an optimistic person.
This man that’s now in my life was my very first boyfriend. My first love. We were together when we were 12. I was crazy about him then. I even carved his initials into my arm. I was a messed up child but I’ve explained some of that in my other post about my father. Of course things didn’t last. We grew up living different lives with different friends. I ended up moving to North Carolina when I was 15.
Fast forward 16 years. Still living in NC. Jan 1st of 2008. My 2nd husband has just left me. Says he can’t handle it. It takes me 2 weeks to get over him. I had tried breaking it off with him 3 times before but he kept convincing me to give him another chance. So I did. Stupidly.
So 2 weeks later after New Years Day I get a Myspace message from my very first boyfriend. Asking how I am. I tell him about how my husband just left me but I’m fine cause I didn’t want to be with him either. We send messages back and forth all day. Then I give him my number so we can talk more. He calls. It’s like we’ve been friends all this time. We have the same sense of humor. We make each other laugh. We talk every single day now. Feelings start to emerge again. But he lives in California. In the same city we grew up in. We decide, because these feelings keep growing, for him to fly out here and see if there’s anything to this.
He fly’s out in mid February. It turns out the feelings are more intense than we could ever imagine. Nothing like we’ve ever felt before. It’s like we’ve been together forever. Finishing each others sentences. Understanding the warped sense of humor we have. It’s amazing!
So he never left. He’s been here ever since. The relationship has been amazing the whole time. I’m completely and totally in love with this man who was my first love. I still have initials carved in my arm. It’s like we had to go through all these difficult relationships to end up together at the right time in our lives.
Even if it doesnt last. I will forever remember 2008 as the best year of my life. The year I finally knew what love was.
UPDATE
I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for all the lovely comments I received. I’m sorry I couldn’t respond to everyone. It was a little overwhelming. So thank you thank you thank you
Comments (140)
Beautiful! I wanna love like that
YEAY WILLIE!!!!!! I remember those “darker days” for you! I’m so glad you’re happy now honey!!! LOVE YOU!
That’s amazing. Really, really amazing.
Aww congrats :]] This is so sweet!!
I hope 2009 is an even better year for you.
That was like something straight from the movies….How romantic <3
How can I not rec my cougar’s true love story.
Congrats on 2008 beautiful. You deserved it.
This is an amazing story!!
Thats so cool!!
I hope 2009 is even better though!
Aww that so sweet and romantic! It will last!
Awww. This was real nice. That is so funny how that worked out.
Aw. This is inspirational– sorta reminds me to never give up.
That’s awesome! It’s really cute how you can fall in love all over again, and when you do, the feeling of having that one person giving everything they have just to be with you, is just simply amazing.
Congratulations on finding someone who can make you feel that way. And congratulations on having a year so good that you don’t wish for improvement in the next. You enjoy what you have and I’ll wish that your next year is even better, okay? Because there’s always room for improvement.
U live in NC. I live in NC. I live in columbus county. Dont come here cuase once u get in, u never can get out cuase its so horrible
well. I hated 2008. It was the year my life ended. I had a broken heart. Four stab wound in it, kicked out of school
and I will never ever know what love is. I hate it so I dont want it cuase its stupid
@AilinCorazon - Wait! I thought I was your cougar?!
This is such a great story, Becca. I’m so happy for you.
Totally amazing! I’m happy for you. It sounds like a great script for a movie, doesn’t it. I hope things go well for you! Hugs, and happy belated holidays!
This is so amazing! Wow! Like a modern-day fairy tale–you know, the best kind, because it really happens. Obviously
Relish in the moment. I hope you continue to have more reasons to smile.
That is such a wonderful story! I’m so glad you got to experience real love.
Since I had my first relationship (love?) this past year, 2008 was amazing for me, too.
Aww
This is cute. Best wishes to you guys with many more years to come (=
So happy for you!
Hate to be a grammar nazi, but shouldn’t it be “knew”?
@silence_of_words - omg yes. thank you!
Awee!!! What a great love story!
Xo
wow i tottly understyand what ur sayingthe whole arm thing and that one person who finaly showes u love back it is amazing tho i havent been with her as long as u and ur man but yea …umm u never did answer my ? i left on i think it was ur last post hey i hopeu have a happy 2009 better then you could ever emagin
@firehotness - oh no i didnt? im sorry. what was your question?
this gives me hope that all love is not completely lost. though through recent situations i had believed it was. forever. gone. but now i’m having second thoughts. good post snippie. thanks for adding me by the way.
take care
well my question was do u think it is better to be bigger langth wise or to be bigger in roundness or thickniss …do u know what i mean
@firehotness - its not about size. its all about what you do with it. truth!
This made me cry.
=]
glad 2008 was a great year for you… hopefully 2009 will be just as great.
D
Awww <3
That’s great. Really beautiful.
Awww, that is awesome!
Hey, I love your new layout!!!!!!
humm thats what i hear from people but i just never thought that to be tru … humm i guess im self contious about it cause 5 1/2 and i think that is short i guess and a feww of my gf have sead that it is big with wise rather then long and that makes me self contious u know
This entry and the way you both kissed New Year’s just shows how much you love each other. So happy for you!
This is cute.
I wish the best for you and your boyfriend. It sounds a lot like how I went through with my last girlfriend. I’d tell you to keep a close watch on things and to let him know every day that you love him, and actually let him know that you love him. Don’t just say it at the end of a conversation or whatever and then be on your way.
That is so awesome! I hope it works out for you guys, you certainly deserve it! Best of luck to you.
Awe I hope I can find something like this.
What a great story.. I’m happy for you. 08 was a great year for me too.. Heres to another great year!
Beautiful love story. I hope it continues with many more chapters.
Isn’t it crazy how things just fall into place?
) Congrats!!
That’s a wonderful story! It definitely serves to give hope to everyone
Very sweet story. I’m very happy for you
Congratulations, that’s a great story, and you’re so lucky to have found someone like that!
Good for you! I love rekindled romances. Best wishes for a real-live happily ever after!
sounds wonderful. who would have thought it was your first love so long…
This post reminds me so much of myself! I split with my first love a year & 1/2 ago because of him leaving for the military & future uncertainties..he lives in california now with his training. We still have a close connection though. I’m fixing to go off to south carolina for college & reading your post has given me hope that me & him could work things out so thank you for posting this :] it was definitely needed in my time of struggle right now. good luck to both of you!
Love love love la la love… La la love.. Makes the world go round.
aww.ur…. that’s so coll… nad congrats…=)
wow, this is like a real fairy tale..! happy to hear this
Awwww, how sweet.
wow thats amazing!
i had to learn the hard way and all~ but i think i have learned what love is this year as well. so i’m glad we both got to have a wonderful year.. but i still think 2009 will be even better hehe
happy new year
Thats so amazing! im so glad your 2008 was great!
Amazing. I hope it lasts through 2009 and then some.
just got BIG tears in my eyes. awwwwwwwwwww, OMG! the same thing happened to me this past year(minus the 2 ex husbands! lol). the first boy i ever kissed when i was 12 too found me on myspace… it was the BEST experience of my life (besides the births of my children of course) and though it didn’t work out it was something i will never forget & always cherish. i hope it all works out for you… enjoy it for EVERYTHING it is!! it is wonderful<333
What a love story. Glad to hear that love wins again.
That is so sweet! How refreshing to know that you had awesome taste as a 12 year old. ha
Aw, that’s so sweet! I hope things continue to go well for you.
Good story! Enjoy! Funny I remember back to kindergarten one girl I always used to hold hands with. We stayed buddies all the way through highschool, but nothing ever came of it in the romance dept. Sometimes that’s better.
They say that the first true love is the best.
you’ll have to come read my new post… talk about fate… for both of us!
@frogmom1010@datingish - alrighty!
This is beautiful! It kinda gives me hope too… Thanks for sharing!
this sounds like a great love. uncommon these days, but still amazing to hear about. ^_^
Well I guess if you’re stuck with his initials in your arm then you might as well love him. = )
that is so lovely… it’s almost like a fairy tale made true to life… hooray for princess becca! everyone should be able to know what love is before they die… so many don’t.
Reality is so much more amazing than any hollywood movie.
I hope your new year just gets better. =]
Good people deserve the best!!!
And take care what you have!!! Luv to see Happy People!!!
I’m still looking for that kind of feeling.
That’s crazy. Congrats!
That’s so sweet. I wish you two the best of luck!
What an amazing story.
If only we were all so lucky to have something to tell about finding love.
I am very happy for you!! Good luck!
wow thats great! you’re a really strong person. happy new year!
oh btw- i love your banner! i’m a huge fan of lewis carroll!
How romantic. That is really neat! I hope that 2009 is the year of Romance for me!!
Happy New Year!
awe, maybe you 2 are really meant to be together
Awwww
i love your background!
That, my dear, was wonderful. You lived 2008 with ups and downs, and Im happy to see you were able to share this with us ::Feels warm with a corney girlish smile on her face::
What an amazing story! He’s a lucky guy.
the more happy people there are
the more the world becomes a better place!
i love that! makes me want to look up my crush from middle school. haha.
Aw, this post makes me happy. =)
Aww great to hear (:
This is so beautiful – what a wonderful and unexpected event!
I hope 2009 treats you right.
that’s a really cute story. it made me go ‘awww’. i’m glad you’re happy [:
I’m so glad for you, thats an amazing story. And I wish you all sorts of luck
I’m still in love with my first girlfriend. I haven’t seen her in 35 years. Your story gives me hope and frankly a great deal of trepidation.
That’s such a beautiful love story! Thanks so much for sharing, I’m so happy for you both.
wow that’s unbelievably amazing! like a movie!
woww. i didnt think things like this happened in real life.
awwwwwwww…
First love never truly dies.
Aww. Best of luck with this fellow.
I know exactly how you feel about your first love.
Congrats!
I can only hope that I can be as lucky as you.
What a sweet and inspiring story! I could use a bit of hope at the moment. Thank you for sharing…
That’s the most amazing thing I’ve ever heard. I’m happy for you (: 2008 was the first time I experienced my first true love as well and it was amazing. Me and him aren’t together anymore but for the long time that we were, it was the greatest thing I’ve ever experienced. Best wishes to you two.
i found love in 2008 too and like you, i will remember it that year forever.
Wow, so magic & beautiful a love like this is. I often think about my past loves and wonder what they are doing with their lives. I am with my soulmate, he puts up with so much crap me. 2009 will be magical for you.
OK, this story deserves a mini to celebrate never ending LOVE.
@wholefoodsMum - thanks sweety! i appreciate your comment and mini!!!
AWWWW, I wanna love story! This is so sweet.
Awww, thats cute.
awwww. that’s a gorgeous love story. that’s def. one to tell the grand kids. i hope that 2009 brings nothing but good things for you !
Fabulous. <3 =]
lol.. it’s like… magic!
I am very happy for you.
This post gives us all hope. Thank you.
awww I love ‘love stories’
you need a movie.
lol.
that was sweet.
Aww, that’s so amazing. I’m glad everything worked out for you. It’s like a movie. I live in NC also btw and agree that this year was the best year I’ve had so far
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Not to sound like everyone else, but… that was awesome.
I wish I could say the same about 2008. For me, I’m SO happy it’s done and am ready to put it behind me and push forward… so so so thankful for the new year. Nonetheless, it’s uplifting to hear this.
I am in love with the picture on the top of your site. Where did you get that? That’s amazing. Ha!
Beautiful my fiancee and I’s story is almost just like yours, with a few more things here and there
Nice.
That was a beautiful story. =] Hope the new year brings even MORE happiness for you both.
Thats a heart warming srory. The two of ye sound so happy!! =]
Wow you have one of those rare stories where you fall in love once and that is the one for you. Congratulations! I really hope both you and him find a stable like and job in NC, afterall it takes more than just personality to make a relationship work.
this story made me smile wide. it’s like one of those love movies where the boy and the girl who are supposed to be together end up with each other at the end of the movie
i’m beyond happy for you.
WOW!!! That is SO romantic!!! Am SO tickled for you,
And if it makes you feel any better, just know my vacation is over and I’m hitting the ground running today with work as well,
You are NOT alone, lol, 
Have a great Monday, 
Snippie! This is a wonderful story, and a smiling Snippie lights up the whole world! Muah!
the post I posted today was along this line.
Thats soo romantic!
I didn’t realize we had so much in common. I’m sorry I didn’t read this post the first time it was posted (somehow I missed it!) but I am twice divorced, too. It’s not something I share all that often about myself but it’s true. And I had a year like your 2008 but mine was in 2006. Maybe I’ll post my story. You’ve inspired me.
I’m so glad to hear that you’ve found true love. It is amazing, isn’t it? Much love …
Amazing Story. I hope your 2009 is all that plus so much more. Goodluck!
… that is so sweet. Your story sounds like a romantic movie.
that’s sweet! hope everything works out well for you. =)
I’d love to love like this. Fall irrevocabley and unconditionally in love with someone and lose all sense of the things that would normally knock you over. This is a wonderful thing, and you don’t need any of my best luck wishes because you seem to already have what we all desire. You have a beautiful thing going and youre a lucky woman. I wish you many years of this kind of happiness.
aww that is soooo sweet!
uh huh. now that i’ve waited and made a comment, i expect a response. ahem.
i expect and encore for 2009. may the best get better. =)
@TheBigShowAtUD - response
@SnippiesBlog - ornery, aren’t you? i approve, though.
@TheBigShowAtUD -
geeze you get a lot of comments.
anyways, you friended me, so I thought I’d say hi
hi!
-Greg
Wow, You only hear about stories like these in movies…
It sounds like a true fairy-tale romance. :}
Congrats!
=)
you’re lucky! and I’m sure you know that. I want a good year like that
and lots of love =)
best wishes!
i like it….
This is a breathtaking love story. Thank you for sharing it. : ) I know there is so much more between these lines that remains unsaid, and that is where the most important parts of the story reside, and for that I congratulate you. This is a very good thing.
How incredibly sweet. I feel happy for you, and I know he moved back already [I read that he came back to Cali] but considering how compatible you two are, I know it’s likely you’ll spend a looong time with each other in the near future.
Reminds me of what I should be happy for myself. My boyfriend lives in NH, you see… and while we’ve already met, we can hardly wait for the future.
@AdiOpERsOcoM - he’s just going to help his mom out. he’ll be back in like a month. but thanks!!!
I am feeling the love from your entry and I want to hug you!